Sunday, September 11, 2011

Remembering September 11, 2011 - 10 Years Later

I don’t remember the tiny details. I don’t remember what I was wearing nor do I remember the weather that day, but I do remember walking to newspaper class (Gavel) where I was editor.

I remember walking with a classmate in the hallway, asking each other, “did you hear what happened?”

I remember my first thought being, “oh wow, that’s so awful about the plan crash! I wonder if the plan malfunctioned or if the weather was bad in New York?” A terrorist attack didn’t even cross my mind, until a few minutes later when the second tower was hit and the media began stating that this was an attack on America.

Side note: Sadly, when we had the earthquake a couple weeks ago, my first thought was a terror attack. Sad how different our mindset has changed in ten years.

As we were watching the footage, we watched in horror as the towers fell. I remember thinking, “did we REALLY just watch that happen?”

While my heart was breaking for New York, the events really hit home when we started hearing that the Pentagon was hit. In high school, it was a running joke that we had friends who had parents who worked for the government but that their families didn’t know what their job actually entailed because they weren’t allowed to tell anyone what they really did. I was worried about my classmates – were their moms and dads safe?

Then I started wondering if we should be concerned in Winchester. We were about 80 miles outside of DC; had a bomb or something with wide-spread destruction hit DC, we certainly would have felt the effects.

As we are reflecting on what that day meant 10 years ago, I am humbled by the stories of all of the victims and first responders. I am also in awe of the passengers of Flight 93, the plane that crashed in Pennsylvania.

To think that those people – “ordinary, everyday” men and women – took it upon themselves to sacrifice their lives and safety to keep as many people as they could safe? That’s truly the American spirit. Thinking of our fellow citizens before thinking of ourselves? That’s heroic, beautiful and something that I will never forget.

To those who serve an exemplify that kind of selfless-ness daily – either as a firefighter, police officer, a member of the military both civilian and especially those on the front line – I don’t think thank you is adequate, but they are the only words that I have: Thank you. To think that there are those who risk their safety and their lives every single day for the freedom and well-being of their country men and women fills my heart with so much gratitude and pride.

To those who serve that I personally know, I am thankful to know such amazing men and women. Our country is better simply because you are willing to make sacrifices that many of us can’t even fathom.

To those who are hurting today, it’s ok to hurt. It’s ok to cry. To make sure those deaths are not in vain and to ensure that evil does not prevail, it’s important to reflect and remember. It does not show weakness; it shows resolve and compassion. It’s important to remember those feelings – good, bad, sad, happy – so that we can grasp the extent of the event.

Remember what’s important. Remember to be thankful. Remember to say I love you. Good can only defeat evil when love fills our hearts. Don’t wait for another tragedy to come before you start living your life.

Thursday, July 28, 2011

Thursday, July 21, 2011

Weigh-in Wednesday...a day late.

I did weigh-in on Wednesday but didn't get around to posting. Partially because I gained weight and felt disappointed, embarassed. Then I realized by NOT posting, I would be doing what I have been doing the past few weeks: hiding and pretending.

So, the truth? I already mentioned my awful weekend and lack of exercise. The result? I gained 1.4 pounds. Ouch. Though, that is still (slightly) less than two weeks ago. Yay?

What can I do to make next weigh-in successful?

Well, YOU GUYS rock and have given me some great tips: non food rewards, 30 day shred, tracking, etc. Here is hoping next Wednesday's weigh-in is more successful.


Monday, July 18, 2011

...And this is why you're fat.

"I had a bad day, so I deserve any and all the food that I want..."

"I'm too tired. I worked hard so I don't have to exercise. I deserve a break..."

Entitlement comes in many forms. Whether it's because you feel you are owed something just because, or because you feel you deserve a break because things have been difficult for you.

No, we don't deserve anything and we aren't owed anything. Quite the contrary. What we deserve and what we are owed is the opportunity to live a happy, healthy life. That doesn't mean that because I've had a bad day, I get to indulge in all the treats I want. That's silly. No wonder I'm fat; every day is a hard day. I don't get cakes, cookies, chips and comfort food because I've survived another day.

It's called life. Life happens.

Just because I want something, doesn't mean I deserve it. Just because you want a new car, a new house, a new body doesn't mean you deserve it. You have to work hard for it.

I can't wish away the the extra 50 pounds I'm carrying on my frame. I can't wish for things to be easier. Wishing is cute, but hard work gets the job done. Actually, at this point, any work will at least be a right step in getting the job done.

I'm not looking forward to Wednesday's weigh-in. Since Thursday, I've made excuses:

Thursday night: We deserve pizza because we had a power outage and a gas leak.
Friday lunch: We deserve lunch out because we survived another week.
Saturday: Peter had to work so we deserve a treat.
Sunday: We haven't had much of a weekend, so we deserve to have a nice lunch with friends that includes pre-appetizers, appetizers, a full meal and dessert.

Peter and I have been watching (well, he's been watching, typically I fall asleep on the couch, but whatever) the Extreme Makeover Weight Loss Edition show. Last week's contestant really struck a cord with me. He was so incredibly addicted to food, lying about what he was eating and exercising and simply couldn't make the changes he needed to make.

I understand that I'm not hundreds of pounds overweight, but truthfully, sometimes I'm surprised that I'm not. I've said and done most of the things that man had...he had all the help in the world but couldn't kick his addiction to food. He probably felt he deserved the fast food, the donuts, the whatever.

I really do believe there is some truth in the quote that "everyone is living the life that he or she wants," because if it's not what you want, you will take steps to fix it. This weekend and prior weeks, I didn't take the right steps to fixing myself so in a way, I was living the life that I wanted...or perhaps it was the life I deserved at that point?

What I deserve is stop making excuses, get off my butt and stop eating crap.

Here's to another Monday...another day and week to maybe get it right.

Wednesday, July 13, 2011

Weigh-in Wednesday: Round 1

The scale was kind(er) today. It is amazing what saying no to overeating, scaling back, having more fruits and veggies plus getting back into working out will do!

Weigh-in: 214.4
Last week: 216.0
Change: -1.6

I'm pretty happy with that and look forward to seeing the numbers continue to fall, and feeling fit and fabulous!


Monday, July 11, 2011

Wanted: Cute workout gear!

Over the weekend, Peter and I went to the mall. Old Navy had random sales. One of those sales happened to be 75% off select workout gear. I wouldn't have paid the $19.50 price tag but it was worth $5.

Peter was nice and bought me a new racerback top that I couldn't waaaaait to use! Yup, I wanted to workout, even if it was just to wear the new top. I used it today and while cute, I would have liked a little more support. It will be a good lower-impact sports top but I'm not sure if I will run in it again.

It did have a form of moisture-wicking fabric, so I didn't feel too sweaty afterwards though it did ride up a little and I had to pull it down a few times.

I *do* really want more cute and functional workout clothes - perhaps that would motivate me to workout more!


Greek Salad - Take that, Olive Garden!


I'll let you in on a little secret: I don't like salads.

Yes, I can eat them, but they are definitely not my favorite food. In an effort to add more greenery to my diet, I decided to make my own Greek salad. I love Olive Garden's salad (yes Olive Garden would be Italian but the salad is more Greek-y).

I will have to be better about measurements and nutritional facts, but for this particular salad I used about:

Greek Salad
-2 to 3 cups of lettuce
-half a tomato
-red onion slices
-banana peppers
-pitted medium olives
-feta cheese
-oregano (truly the kicker and flavor booster)
-a few texas toast croutons
-kraft greek vinaigrette and marinade (next time I will use a little less dressing...a little bit of vinaigrette goes a long way!)

Mix, toss and enjoy! Yum yum!